Hi Honey....I wanted to wish you a happy 34th birthday. I hope you know how much you are loved and missed. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you or speak your name. We all miss you. I really didn't want to get up today because it hurts so much knowing that we still don't really know what happened. We do have hope that we may get some answers soon. We haven't given up. We have some amazing, caring people who really just want to help us get the answers we so desperately need.
Dad and I will be having your favorite birthday dinner tonight. Artichoke chicken. It will forever be known as "Sam's Dinner." Probably going to skip the dessert as we just had Dad's birthday meal yesterday. He picked homemade pizza and then strawberry ice cream shortcake for dessert. Of course he had to have whipped cream all over it too. You and he used to pick trifles all the time. Remember your cakes when you were little...you always had me do Disney themed cakes. And then after you would open all your presents you would give us a fashion show of the clothes you got. You loved that. I always had so much fun picking out new outfits for you and so did Aunt Willie. The timing was perfect with school right around the corner.
Life has been a little challenging lately. The beast has decided to progress so I'm waiting to see if I can get in a clinical trial. Lots of testing this week and then we should know if I get in or just move on to the next standard of care option. I often ask you what you think I should do and I listen. I know you were with me during my brain surgery and the following gamma knife treatments. Thank you for keeping me calm during those sessions.
Your brothers and sisters-in-love are doing well. We talk about you all the time. Dad is still busy working and taking care of me. Well we take care of each other as always. You would love our fur babies. You never got to me Laila as we had just gotten her right before you went missing. Angus is only 18 months and is smart as a whip.
Well I just wanted to tell you how much you are loved and I'm so very grateful for the day you were born. You were a blessing to all who had the honor to know you. I try to imagine what you would be doing now, what you would look like, where you would live. I find comfort in sitting in your room and looking through old photos. I am so glad I took so many. I'll never understand why this happened, but I do hope we get some answers soon.
Thank you for bringing so much love into our lives and the world....the world really could use more of you right now. You are always on my heart and in my mind...
Love you baby girl.... Mom
